Heyo! I just wanted to share some thoughts from this Tuesday that really feels like a Thursday. Thoughts from Thursday would sound so much better.
1. Yogurt does not make for pretty pictures. It’s not happening.
Even that perfect swirl of Sunbutter barely perks it up.
2. Here’s what I really think happened this year, health-wise:
- Working in an office for the first extended period of time in my life. Hours upon hours of sitting. Fluorescent lighting. Nary a window near my cube. Enclosed spaces for germs to fester. Carpets in which germs can marinate. My job distracts me from all this, but a body has to adjust, I suppose!
- Stress. This has taken a toll on my body in ways I haven’t shared on the blog. Trying to figure it all out has been expensive.
- Only getting 6 hours of sleep a night Monday through Thursday, 12 months in a row and working, working out, blogging, maintaining a long-distance relationship, and maintaining long-distance friendships.
- Being frustrated with my living situation and other personal situations. (MamaJ and Popsicle already know this, and they also know how appreciative and thankful I am to have them help me during this time by providing shelter and being absolutely supportive and loving. ) This has led to many days of feeling generally crappy about myself. Maybe I’m not supposed to say that, but it’s the truth. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve teared up in frustration. But now I just need to take action.
- Eating whatever is near and available without taking the time to even care about it.
- Traveling every other weekend and fitting in mini-trips when I can.
- I’ll stop now.
3. Why I never talk about this is because I don’t have it harder than anyone else. You probably work longer hours, have an additional job (or two), are studying, training for a marathon, taking care of your children, planning a wedding, writing a novel, dealing with serious challenges— and I’m slow-clapping for you, sista. But everyone has a breaking point. Everyone gets to a point where they can’t take it anymore and need to flip out. Your breaking point is different than mine. What bothers me may be a breeze to you, and vice versa. I don’t want to make anyone else’s struggles feel small by blowing mine up.
4. New Girl should be an hour long. Really.
5. You know that phrase, “I had one of those days.” I clearly had one of those. Except it was bad. No way to spin it. Just bad.
6. A few nights ago, I finished reading The Secret. I believe in positive thinking and that your thoughts create your reality. But I feel that in order for this to be powerful, you have to acknowledge the good, the bad and the uncomfortable first. You have to know which way you want to steer your life and whether you need to turn in a new direction.
7. Glee was awesome last week. My virginity frightened me in high school, and that episode resonated with me. I also love the portrayal of the intimacy in Kurt and Blaine’s relationship.
8. I ate out of tupperware on Tuesday. I usually try to avoid that because I can always taste the plastic in the food.
Butternut, cranberry and coconut quinoa leftovers!
9. I started taking voice lessons in October because it’s something I’ve always wanted to do. It is the highlight of my week.
10. After a long day of running around and putting out fires, I needed to zone out on the elliptical for an hour. Without the magazines of my choice on hand, I read Health and UsWeekly. The gym is the only time I read tabloids. I try to hide them beneath another magazine as I walk to an elliptical. People at the YMCA can’t know!
11. For dinner, I debated: salad and eggs or carbs and cheese?
Tortelloni soup and fresh sourdough baguette topped with Laughing Cow.
Followed that up with dark chocolate.
12. I turn 24 on Friday. I’m not sure how I feel about that. Indifferent?
13. I am thankful that Wednesday is a new day. And it’s going to be flipping FABULOUS.
Ciao for now,
Kailey
Question: Any thoughts you’d like to share?
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It WILL be fabulous!
Thanks for the heartfelt post. I’m in my freshman year and as much as I would love to get married and all, I’m dreading the day I have to step out and live in the real world of long hours at an office job and living for the weekends :/ Was the tortellini soup homemade? It looks awesome.
Thanks for sharing a bit of your own perspective, too, Shannen! The soup was homemade but the tortelloni were store bought! Here are the ingredients:
1 qt. vegetable broth
A few handfuls of tortelloni
1/2 can crushed tomatoes
2 chopped green onions
salt and pepper to taste
loads of parmiggiano reggiano
Thanks! Deceptively simple
Although you don’t often talk about your struggles, sometimes it is nice to hear because it makes others feel like they’re not alone. I’m right with you on the living situation and it’s rough, but knowing other people are feeling/going through the same things makes me feel a little bit better. I wish we could all find our happiness, though.
On a better note, I also agree that New Girl should be an hour long. It is so wonderful.
Also, 24 isn’t so much different than 23, I think. Although, I’ve only been 24 for a few months. We’ll see if that changes for the rest of 24.
Andddd my comment is starting to make no sense. I hope you have a better rest of the week!
Glee was amazing. My virginity freaked me out too, college not so much.
I know what you mean by “breaking point”. I often feel like my breaking point is much lower than it is for others’, and hesitate to talk about it on the bloggy, but trust me when I say you are you and you’re worth whatever you need to do! xooxx
these are the kind of posts i love from you!! so honest, so real, so great. you are awesome! talking about your struggles makes you more likable, and honestly, if someone doesn’t want to read about it they can find a different blog. authenticity!!!
Thanks for the really honest post, I think these things resonate the most with me. And good for you for taking voice lessons!!! I have never danced before in my life but for the past year I have been craving to learn ballet so badly. I need to just get myself out there and sign up for lessons one of these days… this is the motivation I need.
PS: Good choice with dinner. Carbs and cheese always win out.
I’m a long time reader of your blog, Kailey, but I have never commented on any of your posts. This one really resonates with me, though. I just started law school in September in a state a million miles (it feels like a million, anyway) from home. I never get enough sleep, I’m sitting all the time (classes and studying), my stress levels are through the roof and, like you, I reach for the first thing I see when it comes to meals. I feel like I’m putting my body through hell! It’s comforting to hear that I am not the only one.
I just want you to know that I think you are such an inspirational person. You have the most honest and realistic approach to a healthy lifestyle. You’ve had a tough year it seems, but you have handled it beautifully. You are just too fabulous, girl!
P.S. I am OBSESSED with new girl! That show cracks me UP.
I love your honesty. What you’re saying is definitely something everyone can relate to and it always feels better to hear it/share it (so thanks!). Hang in there!
you have every right to bitch and moan! hang in there, sister. love you.
Thought: We should all be more open and honest about the bad days. It’s nice to hear we aren’t alone – even if we wish no one had to go through the same things we are. The reality is that the good, bad and ugly happen for all of us in some way. Being open and honest really does relieve a (tiny? miniscule?) fraction of the stress. Thanks for keeping it real.
Also, I think 24 really is an indifferent age. I’m six months in. Not sure how I will feel about 25.
On the bright side, happy early birthday!
I’m a long time reader of your blog, Kailey, but I have never commented on any of your posts. This one really resonates with me, though. I just started law school in September in a state a million miles (it feels like a million anyway) from home. I never get enough sleep, I’m sitting all the time (classes and studying), my stress levels are through the roof and, like you, I reach for the first thing I see when it comes to meals. I feel like I’m putting my body through hell! It’s comforting to hear that I am not the only one.
I just want you to know that I think you are such an inspirational person. You have the most honest and realistic approach to a healthy lifestyle. You’ve had a tough year it seems, but you have handled it beautifully. You are just too fabulous, girl!
P.S. I am OBSESSED with new girl! That show cracks me UP.
My 26th is this Sunday.
I’m freaking out. I don’t have a full time job yet, have moved back home with parents, BF is in Hawaii for 4yrs for grad school…all my friends have moved away/in with their boyfriends.
Yea, I don’t know where I’m headed.
Glad to know I’m not the only one.
Hang in there girl
I resonate with #2. In same place, sick non stop last year. Just turned 25 and it’s the biggest mind trip, we can talk about in a year. Don’t ask me why, but there’s an expression “quarter life crisis” that makes sense now.
I turned 27 last Sunday, I had an exciting day, full of lovely surprises and gifts!!
You should definetly not feel indifferent about being 24, you should feel fabolous, amazing and lovely! Enjoy your 24th dear! Happy Birthday in advance xx
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I’ve been thinking a lot about my next step. I’m graduating from college in a month, and will be moving back in with my mom until I can work enough to earn money so that I can embark on my own adventures. Most of my friends graduated in May, and they are all either making bank on Wall Street, changing lives with Teach for America, or already making strides in getting their PhDs. So I’ve been thinking a lot about how I fit into all of this too.
I love your posts like this. You say things that I need to hear from a slightly older and wiser sister. Darn this whole being the oldest sibling thing!
As I’m writing this from Sydney, Australia, aka the Other Side of The World, aka The Future, I’m baptizing this comment ‘Wisdom from Wednesday’.
I’m a twenty-something former model, part-time broadcast journalist, and aspiring economist, who has, over the past six years, earned ridiculous amounts of money posing for photographs, mopped vomit off the floor of too many dive bars (I wish I was lying here) while trying to pay my way through university, lived in my parent’s tiny spare bedroom in-between extended European sojourns, had fabulous designer clothing, been so broke I once lived off refried beans and bananas for two weeks, felt on top of the world, had a nervous breakdown, spontaneously moved to Berlin, gained 15 kilos and a ‘trendy’ gender-neutral haircut, almost had a second nervous breakdown as a result of said haircut, created the longest running sentence of all time. I could go on, but instead I’ll hand the mic over to The Wisdom of The Ages:
‘This too shall pass’
Hi Kailey. I’ve never commented on your blog before, but I felt compelled this time because I can very much relate to what you’re going through – specifically on the job front.
I finished my undergrad in 2007 and went on to do a Master’s, which I finished in 2009. I was unemployed for 3 months post-graduation and ended up working through a temp agency for 3 months (I actually LOVED where I was placed). Then I got hired at my current organization, where I changed jobs FIVE TIMES in 2 years, finally ending up in my current position, where I’ve now been for a year and 4 months.
I always thought I just wanted consistency and a long-term job that I could settle into, but somehow I’ve been getting more and more depressed and unhappy the longer I’ve been in my job. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to figure out why that is, and I think I’ve figured it out: I’m unhappy when I’m not working toward something. My life has been so full of change – grew up, moved halfway across the country for college, finished my undergrad, applied to my M.A, finished my M.A., tried to find a job, found a job, changed jobs x5, ended a long term relationship, started a new relationship…the end. It’s hard for me to be inspired and happy when I feel like I’m not working toward something better or that nothing better is on the horizon.
I think it’s great that you’re taking voice lessons. Recognizing that I’m not in love with the 9-5, I’ve started working toward my Personal Training certification and my Real Estate license and feeling a sense of “Screw you, work! I’m moonlighting and secretly working on something I like more than you!” has been helpful for my sense of contentment.
Sorry for the long-winded comment; I guess this is why I usually stay quiet
Totally understandable about everything you said in #2. When I was living with my parents the year after I graduated from college, I was more than thankful they allowed me to do that (when they also had my younger brother living at home along with my sister and her husband – full house!), but ti was so frustrating to say the least to be an adult and still have to follow the parents’ rules.
And I don’t think you should feel like you should apologize for telling it how it is. Everyone has days like you had, has feeling like you had, and I think a lot of people get turned off when they see positivity all the time, because let’s face it – everyone has a crap day.
Thanks for this post!
And for reading this ridiculously long comment.
1. Thanks for the advice on the previous post. I think I’ll go for the Neti Pot. Eek.
2. I loved this post. I know everyone’s all about positivity, but there is a fine line, as you point out, between being optimistic and thankful, and just masking all of your true feelings. The beautiful thing about being human is that it DOES involve things like pain, sadness, frustration, and bad days–for everyone, even the most priveleged of people. Being human means being complex and feeling the good AND the bad. If we stop acknowledging that, I personally believe that we stop being fully human.
Darling, I hope you woke up this morning feeling better. Life is most definitely not perfect but you are a beautiful human being and you deserve all the happiness in the world. Wishing you the best, as always. Love you.
Hey girl, I’m sorry I haven’t had the chance to comment in a reallyyy long time. I just had to pop in and tell you what a strong, AMAZING person you are (I’m sure you have been told before manyyy times before, but just reminding you
. None of us are indestructible, we all have our breaking points as you have already said. I have definitely had breaking points this year with struggling to get A’s so I can hopefully get into nursing school, friend drama, a close friend getting cancer, etc. We are all different and you have every right to feel how you feel. The wonderful side to this rough time is….it is going to get better. You just have to keep pushing forward and keep your head up (I know how hard it can be, but I believe you!) As my older brother Tino has said many times……”Good things are coming, good things.” And they sure are for you! 
p.s. Sorry this was such a long comment!
Re: #2 and 3. YUP, I’ve been feeling most of the same things lately too, and YUP, I’ve been keeping it off the blog because no one really wants to hear me whine day after day. Suffice to say that I think you’re awesome and strong for getting up every day and just dealing with those frustrations and difficulties, and putting on a happy face to fake it ’till you make it. Here’s hoping we can both calm down and de-stress a little in the upcoming months…
Yes, everyone is struggling sometimes. And this is proof that we’re great at hiding it! You deserve to say it’s not an easy time for you, no matter that there are starving kids in Africa. We have to take care of ourselves and our own sanity before we can help others, right?
I’ve read The Secret! I wavered between thinking it was a load of bull, and thinking it was the greatest thing I’ve ever read. I think the idea behind it is great though.
I think everyone needs to vent once in a while and a “bad day” is as good as any. I hope that things looked a little better when you woke up today!
Oh my goodness…this post.
Thank you, first of all, for being so honest about the feelings and experiences you’ve been having. You are absolutely not alone, and it comes with 1) this age 2) figuring your sh&t out and 3) transitioning from living at home to creating your own life. It’s really frustrating and frightening…and working in an office doesn’t help the situation. In fact, I think that the 9-5 schedule in the environment you write of is about 60% of the issue – it’s time consuming, exhausting, and unhealthy. But as you move up in any career, far less time is spent at that desk. Plus, there’s no time like the present to get the office thing over with, pay our dues, and then in a few years, our choices will be far more plentiful.
Also – I totally know what it’s like to be frustrated at your living situation and crave freedom when it’s not a reality yet. When you finally get it, though, there’s a new slew of issues that surface. There’s bill-paying, roommates, homesickness, cleaning, finding a work/life/friendship system that’s healthy, and–because most of the time, moving out means a career change–all the new challenges, egos, and due-paying to deal with. I used to think, say, 3 months ago, that moving out would solve a lot of my discontent, and it’s solved some of it, but this new stage is really just Real World 202. It’s like the next level of an epic video game.
Dissatisfaction and stress seems normal with this age – if smart, ambitious 20-somethings were completely satisfied all the time, we wouldn’t have many movers and shakers of the world. We wouldn’t have magazine editors, models, musicians, presidents (companies and countries), or inventors. Try to take these feelings with a grain of salt and think about your situation as constantly in motion–even if you can’t always detect it, things are always changing
*Side note: voice lessons!! Awesome!! That’s a cool development in all the uncertainty. As a 6-year vet of voice lessons, I’m super excited for you.
I’m done now. Keep your head up, Kailey
I love this comment, Evan! So intelligent and so true….I really love, “think about your situation as constantly in motion–even if you can’t always detect it, things are always changing”….it is so easy to overlook that, but you are totally right.
I want to ‘like’ your comment
aww, thanks you two! I have to give myself this pep talk weekly, it seems.
Ahhhh girl I feel you. I had a horrendous breakup when I lived out West (and said I’d never move back East), but was forced to come back home. Left my stuff (I had an entire house full of crap) out in Arizona and moved back into my parent’s little house in Jersey after living on my own for 5 years. They are amazing, and we’re close, and I am lucky…..but good God. I neeeeed my own space! I break down about once a month. I hate it because it makes me seem ungrateful, but I’m just so frustrated. Not where I saw my life at this point at ALL. I have been home for about a year and a half now and I’m going bonkers, but I just got a raise so hopefully I can save up more and move to Philly within the next year, and then who knows where I will end up. I did finally just get all my stuff out of storage, but that was bittersweet, too. Made the move seem more permanent, and I have nowhere to put all my great things…so in boxes they lie.
I hate to talk about how frustrated I am, because even people like my boyfriend have been through much tougher stuff and I feel so whiney and like my “problems” are insignificant. But ya know what? To each their own, and I think it seems like you are handling your situation so well. We are all allowed to have our little breakdowns. You have SO much on your plate and I feel your pain…things will pan out, and get better….they always do. Even if it takes a little longer than you hope sometimes. Stay strong and keep goin’….things will fall into place when they’re ready. Hopefully we can all take a little comfort in knowing we’re not alone; of course, easier said than done. Especially with stupid Facebook flaunting the wonderful things other people are going through, but I try to remember: the grass isn’t always greener.
Sorry for the longwinded-ness…this post just resonated with me! Oh, and I am obsessed…OBSESSED!! With New Girl and Zooey. And Glee!
You seem incredibly positive and strong willed, I’m sure everything will work out in time! Hang in there, chica!
THANK you. I’m so obsessed with New Girl.
As per usual, you’re really saying all of the things that I’ve been feeling. Grown-up life is FRIGGIN STRESSFUL, man! Long distance relationships…long work hours…overcommittment in your personal life…not enough sunshine…I feel you on everything you said! There has to be a way to pull through it.
I can totally relate to the above!
I am 24 years old and I started my first “desk job” at 22, right out of college. It involved a lot of sitting around, working on the computer and phone and not much physical movement.
I had the same problems as you- colds, flus and lots of stress. I am happy to say that this year has been different. Firstly, I have focused on taking vitamin C everyday( I love Ester C, it is easy on my stomach). I have started incorporating more walking and less processed foods!
Hey Kailey,
I am so sorry you are feeling this way:(
Hope your month gets better! Happy early Birthday. Remember, you have the power to change your thoughts, which effect your feelings, and ultimately your perception:)
Feel better, take some ‘you’ time!
XOXO
B
Dude growing up sucks right? I think people really underestimate that starting “the real world” really has on people. But know that none of us are mad at you or judging you are think you are whining…you have a lot of tough stuff going on! And you’ll also be just fine:)
I also love New Girl.
I’m also 24, and it’s fine. It’s just…24.
I turn 23 on Friday! It kind of hit me that every year I expect to feel different, or expect something to automatically change, and the fact that it hasn’t freaks me out! Happy Brithday – Twin!
My husband and I lived 3 hours apart for over a year before we got married, and it was horrible! Every weekend we would rotate to see each other and it was exhausting. I got sick so much that year and I was a super miss grumpy pants/crying machine.
Hugs!!<3 You always have such a great optimism:) and I'm sure crazy awesome things are on the horizon for you!
Kailey,
I’m with you on this post girl. I finished my degree this spring and fell right into a 9-5 desk job which I was very thankful for seeing as it was at least somewhat related to my educated. After 6 months, I hated the job that was slowly sucking my love for human interactions right out of me, I missed my boyfriend of 4 years who moved 9 hours away and I was mega stressing about what I was supposed to do with my future (i’m 23). I am happy to tell you that i’m sitting here, 6 weeks later, and everything has worked out. I applied for my dream job and GOT it, with a start date in May 2012…In the mean time, I decided I couldn’t sit and wait for my happiness to return next year. Instead, I quit my job, moved out of my place, packed up my car and moved the 9 hours to live with my man on a ski hill for the winter
. While my actions were a bit drastic, it was totally what I needed. We are still young. I don’t have a husband, children or a mortgage yet (one day, fingers crossed), nothing to tie me down.. and i need to do what makes ME happy. You will find your way my dear, remember whats truly important and don’t let the other stuff get in the way. Leave work AT work. Maintain your health. Lean on your friends & family, they love you.
XOXO
Thanks for such an honest post. Often, when reading blogs, it seems like the author has it all together because blogs are organized, neat, and fun! So thanks for letting us know what’s really going on because we’re all going through it, too!!
I’m 25 and I live outside of Philly with my fiancee. I’m currently traveling to Atlanta for work each week and trying to plan my wedding. I’m also type A and a fitness enthusiast, so I try to eat well/work out, keep up our place when I’m home … and just stress myself out in general. I know a lot of it is self-inflicted, but it brings some sense of control to my life. Breakdowns have happened and I think with each one, I’ve had some sort of realization (i.e., don’t need to clean the house every week when I’m not even there, missed workouts will not kill me, etc. etc.)
Hang in there!!!
All of this (yup, ALL of this) resonated with me hard core. My first year or two out of college totally broke me down (and I left college feeling as pumped up as I ever had in my entire life), physically and mentally. I’m sorry that you seem to be drowning in it, but I am so glad to hear that you are honest about it, planning for your future, and finding time to do things that you love and want to do. It’s the best decision you can ever make for yourself.
Oh, and don’t ever feel bad about where your breaking point is in relation to someone else’s. I know you threw out that disclaimer so people wouldn’t go batshit crazy on you, but in reality, we’re all living our own lives, at our own speeds, with our own shit to deal with. You’re entitled to break even if you don’t have kids/aren’t training for a marathon/etc etc. People who give you crap about that by pointing out HOW MUCH BUSIER they are than you can shove it.
Can you tell I’ve had a similar couple of weeks? ; )
happy early birthday (mine was last thursday, also 24!! – enjoy it!)
your gift http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshhoBNVv2yzPL5kle71
I am at a breaking point as well. I have a good job with a good company, great benefits, blah blah blah, but I can’t change the fact that I SIT (and ROT) at a desk all damn day. Day after day after day. Its exhausting and I feel it is slowly killing me. I got my MBA to make more money. Well I make more money but can’t get away from a desk. Sometimes you just need to take a leap of faith… I’m close to that. Thinking of kissing the money goodbye to LIVE my life and not die behind a desk.
LOVE how honest you always are. That’s really how it should be up in this blog world of ours. I’m so excited for you that you’re taking voice lessons!
i dunno kailz, that yogurt looks pretty cool. swirling makes anything look good!
glee has gotten way R rated this season. i feel like its fine for our generation, but i wouldnt let my kids watch it now (whereas previous seasons i think would have had great moral messages to offer young kids).
re: starting a new job. it takes a while to get a handle on things. it was hard for me at first too…moving to nyc…being a new nurse…figuring out how to handle the stress of life, of my job, of my fitness goals, all that stuff. i think theres a (mis)perception that we are expected to hit the ground running after we graduate and start working but thats just not realistic at all. it takes a while to adapt to any changes and something as major as transitioning from college life to grown up life is no exception. it took me a while to realize this because like you (i think?) im a perfectionist and i want things in my life to be the best they can be. sometimes we need to cut ourselves some slack, and sometimes we need to push ourselves harder – there are times for both. once we can figure out how to do both in the right amount, then things are looking good…until then…keep working at it.
(hope that makes sense and doesnt sound parental or anything – just trying to offer some older sister advice)
Kailey! I don’t think I have ever commented before, but I really could relate to this post wanted to tell you that I felt the same way when I lived at home and started working full-time after college. (I’m one year ahead of you.) It is tought to live at home after you’ve been on your own during college… really tough… even when your parents are cool and so supportive. And, having a long-distance relationship doesn’t make things any easier. This will pass. You seem to have so many great things happening in your life. Good luck, girl!
hugs to you girl! totally know what you are going through. going through a rough period myself. had a breakdown yesterday, just cried. only thing that felt right.
thinking of you
xoxo
Michelle
I have a girl crush on Zooey Deschanel!
And I totally feel you–I moved from Wisconsin to Florida after graduating so I could experience somewhere new, and am in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend until he gradates. And hello being old and working all the time–when did that happen? I feel like im 23 going on 73 sometimes.
I’m a voice teacher and also take lessons each week, and I find that singing is a great stress reliever. Music is general helps to quiet the mind. I always leave my lesson happier and look forward to the next one. Happy singing!
Kailey,
I love your honesty, and how you keep everything in perspective while being totally true to how you’re feeling. I’ve written this before, but I was in a long distance relationship out of college, and lived at home for 5 years while maintaining it. It was TOUGH
oops, sorry…hit something and it sent before I finished!
It was tough, and there were times I felt selfish for living at home and not being totally thrilled with my free room and board, but there comes a transition in life when you know you’re ready for the next step (mentally and emotionally), but things may hold you back (finances/work). It helped me to keep the big picture in mind…paying for my schooling and saving a bit so eventually I could move out, fund a wedding, and be independent
Good for you for realizing your feelings and working through them!
You do always have so freaking much going on. I don’t quite know how you juggle it all. But you are most definitely allowed to have whatever breaking point you need and to cry or scream or sleep or whatnot when you get there.
i can totally relate about eating things near and sorta not caring- i just had finals week in Physician Assistant School and let’s just say i pounded a lot of protein powder….(at least i’m eating some weird protein source?) but sometimes you just need a cry or a rant. everyone deserves one! and we’re all here to listen. sadly my best guy friend gets a lot of rants, but hey, TOO BAD. just kidding. Just found your blog again and am reading old posts/stalking. xoox
I’m so happy that you expressed how you felt, Kailey. No one has it together all the time – and bloggers are certainly no exception. It makes you human, it makes you YOU, and it makes us feel that much closer to you. <3
Love you, girl! Sending love, light, and lots of hugs.
-Heather
I turned 24 this weekend. It is a good age so far
lol
thought – it is nuts that you get 54 comments on one post. just sayin
you have it together more than you know, sister
and if you need any inspiration (as i know i do) you should totally read the blog “daily pep talk from a best friend” she has amazing little posts and little podcasts that are so uplifting!
Life stress and a long series of bad days are why I haven’t updated my blog in a month. I keep trying to post, but I’m feeling too negative. Blah. I really appreciated this update, though. I’m feeling inspired to write again, so thanks! I’m five years out of college and fully integrated into office life/the “real world,” but with moving across country to a way bigger and more expensive city, shiz has just been downright hard. The good news is that you and I are both strong, smart, and 100% capable. We’ll figure things out and rock it!
New Girl is different and terrific – but I’m happy with 30 minutes. I like that it leaves me wanting more.
Glee should be 20 minutes, and only musical numbers. I’m afraid it’s trying too hard to regain the magic of that first season.
and btw- you made it to Thursday. Hope things are better.
1. New Girl is the best show on tv right now. My roommates and I are obsessed! ha
2. HAPPY BIRTHDAY
3. DEEP BREATHS AND SMILES
have the best day!
New Girl SHOULD be an hour long…seriously, I just started watching on a whim and I LOVE it!! It is so quirky and funny and I laugh out loud every single episode.
Also, Glee was amazing this week. Not going to lie, I shed some tears. The story with Santana is awesome right now.
I feel like a dink that my thoughts are both about TV.
Hope today is awesome for you since it’s your birthday!!! Enjoy it!!
Happy Birthday Kailey! You are learning and growing every day in ways you don’t immediately recognize. ( Hopefully this will continue your whole life.) Think of this as a learning time- for instance – I don’t want to work in a crappy office building for the rest of my life. Keep looking forward!
My mid-twenties were SO hard, so I totally understand where you are coming from. But it sounds like you have a good job, a wonderful family, bf, etc. so these stressful, rough days won’t last forever. Plus you’re awesome and destined to do great things. I know it.
Hi Kailey! I never comment, but I kind of feel like you’re my j-school American twin, except with nicer hair. Anyways, I am just stopping in to remind you to TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF! I was in the same spot too. New job, not ideal living situation, years of non-stop activity, and stress levels through the roof. Don’t ignore it or brush it off as nothing. Stress weakens your immune system and will open your body up to much scarier things (it’s science!). Relax, enjoy what you can, and don’t do anything you don’t want to do (ie don’t bite off more than you can chew). And don’t be too hard on yourself. We’re all just doing the best we can to survive on this planet!
Most importantly though – happy belated birthday!! Hope it’s been a wonderful weekend xoxo
Susan, your comment means the world to me. Thank you so much for sharing your words of kindness and support. You’re absolutely right. I get stuck thinking, “But everyone feels this. It’s normal! They even feel this multiplied, I’m sure!” And that’s not really a healthy way to think. It’s not going to help me in any way to think that something that’s inherently difficult for me to maintain is just nothing. THANK YOU!
I think you should be able to say/ share WHATEVER is on your mind! No matter if someone may have had a harder day or year, if you’ve just had the best day of your life… Just say it! Regardless, I’ll keep checking in and having some laughs at your funny stories
Hi, New to your blog. Would love to chat with you if possible (you can email me if you’d like). I’m underweight now and struggling with gaining. It all started with so much STRESS, anxiety and everything. I don’t even know what to eat anymore (I’m not vegetarian by the way). I’ve had no success with dietitians and doctors just monitor my weight. I’m so “stuck”. I’d love to know about how you overcame underweight (I’m taking in so many calories and I never do any exercise, and I don’t know how to go higher…I count calories and it feels all so “unnatural”). I almsot feel my body needs a detox because all my good bacteria are gone from stress and poor eating choices, etc. I’m pretty lost actually and would lOVE to chat. Lately, I’ve been bingy at night on chocolate and carbs-galore and that means more guilt for me because I don’t exercise and because my sstomach and bathroom “stuff” shows its not right. I really really don’t want to exclude certain foods from my diet. I’m just lost. Again, feel free to email me if you’d like. Cool either way!
Hey sweet pea, how about you email me? Or I can email you if you included your real address in your comment (don’t worry– only I can see the email addy).
Ok so I am going back through your archives reading posts! I totally sympathize, and am also even more weirded-out that we are so similar! I’m in a long-distance relationship, and it is just so so so hard — so I’m with you!
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