WELL HELLO, THERE! I am back. Back to blogging. Back to wanting to blog. Back to Ohio (but not for long).
Two weeks ago, as I left for LA, I wrote: “Sometimes you go on trips that you hope will change your life or make you see something you desperately need to. I have a feeling this will be one of them.” In ways, it was precisely as I felt it would be.
I wanted to learn, I wanted an adventure and I wanted to be a little wild. I experienced a whole lot of all three. While I felt an energy that just clicked, this trip was also a lesson on What Not to Do. And it’s going to make an excellent series of short stories someday. (Read: NSFBlog.)
I’d never been to LA previously (save for a weekend in the Anaheim Convention Center). Sure, I left for LA thinking I wanted to solely focus on modeling and acting, but once I was there, the strangest thing happened. All I wanted to do was write. My mind could not stop spinning. I started plot lines in my head. I kept repeating the words “pedantic” and “frenetic” to myself and wondering why their definitions aren’t swapped, because doesn’t it sound like they should be? Quotes and paragraphs just came to me. It kept me up at night.
And that’s how you know the energy is right. I felt a freedom of creativity there that I haven’t felt for a long, long time. It probably happens to most creative people who visit— you feel as though you can do anything. Screenwriter who also models, acts, sings and casts? Why not! But as my newfound friends told me repeatedly and all on separate occasions: “Hollywood only rewards hard work and integrity.” Got it? Now I do.
I’ve made a lot of empty promises to myself since I graduated college in 2010. Right now, summer of 2012, is when that stops. Now is when I follow through.
It was a trip that didn’t necessarily change me, just confirm what I needed to know or how I felt. Now I have action behind what I say, want and dream. Now it’s going to happen. But until I share more on that, here are some factoids, tidbits and anecdotes I acquired along my two-week sojourn.
1. Having two 5’10″ females, one blonde, one brunette, walk the streets of West Hollywood in 4-inch wedges will garner countless remarks: “You’re so tall!” (I had no idea.) “How did you get to be so tall?” (You know, I set a goal and I just went for it.) “Go Germany!” (OK, that’s funny-ish.) “Are you guys models?” (Why yes, I am a part-time model, thanks. Part-time model is also one of my favorite new terms. I’d even push it to quarter-time model.)
2. For men, it’s perfectly acceptable to go out in a t-shirt and jeans (well fitted, of course!), but the women are dressed to the muthafluffin nines. If you don’t have fake lashes on, you might as well go home.
3. Finishing Joan Didion’s Play It As It Lays poolside in the hills after a late night of champagne is actually the perfect scenario. In every way.
4. When some dude sees your bag of kale chips popping out of your purse and says, “Whoah! That is some gnarly shit! I’ve never seen that kind before!” you know it’s time to change your scenery. (But bro, thank you for absolutely making my day. Kale chips ≠ weed.)
5. It’s OK to pretend to be someone you’re not…as long as you remember you at the end of the day. Or the beginning of the next. And then you get back to being that person.
6. A lot of the truly successful ones are the quietest ones. Do not terrify them with what you believe to be your mind-blowing hip hop skills. Or do. Depends on what you’d like the outcome to be.
7. Business cards. Always business cards.
8. Free flowing Veuve Clicquot is dangerous, especially on consecutive nights.
9. No one will sign a contract with you or hire you unless you live there. (Every other city in which I’ve ever wanted to work has taught me this, and yet, I like to think, “Maybe this time!” Gurrrl, naw.)
10. Trust no one. Loose lips sink ships. Don’t be that girl. Be entertaining, be bold. Still be a lady. Money can’t buy you class (but it can buy you space and lots of it).
11. You have only yourself to rely on. Put yourself at the mercy of no one else.
12. Be resourceful. We stayed in four different houses, two different hotels and one apartment. Thank you, thank you, thank you, kind souls.
13. Have FUN! It’s about the FUN! But also hard work. And integrity. Remember?
Ciao for now,